Tuesday, July 13, 2010

in response to your childish hate poem (not finished)

you write poems, well he writes songs
you thought i wouldn't, hell you were wrong!
save your hate poems for someone who cares
i got a new one, he writes love songs for nightmares

your rules are for breaking
i just hope that they don't break me
cause your hate words aren't hurting
and your hurt words don't hate me

you gave me tears, he gave me a mixed cd
you gave me fears, he gave me bad memories
in the end it didn't turn out very well
as long as we're both miserable your grimace makes me smile

Friday, June 18, 2010

Fiction (not finished)

i held your hand
i kissed your cheek
you thought i loved you for a week
you're welcome for the looks
you're welcome for the sighs
you're welcome for the things i said
and how they were a lie

Monday, May 31, 2010

you'll miss it when it's gone

you're not scared at all are you
you'll just keep doing what you do
you think i'll always be here waiting
but in the background i am fading
i can't be here anymore
but i cannot find the door

hold your breath
count to ten
don't give up
just do it again
(x2)

the little boy in my arms
i hope he travels to the stars
with his bright eyes and his charm
there is nothing stopping him
he can't stay here too long
but the timing is all wrong

hold your breath
count to ten
don't give up
just do it again
(x2)

the homeless man across the street
i gave him some food to eat
but he was picky and he spit it
out across my feet
beggars can't be choosers
otherwise we'd all be losers

hold your breath
count to ten
don't give up
just do it again
(x2)

you're not scared at all are you
you'll just keep doing what you do
you think i'll always be here waiting
but in the background i am fading
i can't be here anymore
watch me walk right out the door...

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

the hardest part (not finished)

the fast lights
the bright cars
the strong drinks
we'll make ours
the best in the world
our time is
just wasting
away and
we're pacing
just to make it last
but it won't last long
no we won't last long

running and
jumping and
breaking through
walls that we've built
everyone
knows that
the rules are
for breaking
just don't let them break you back
don't worry i'll be back

the hardest part of laughing is living
the hardest part of living is loving
the hardest part of loving is laughing
so laugh when it's not funny
love when they don't love you back
live even when you're dying
pretend there is nothing that you lack and
hold
on
tight

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

dear emily (not finished)

this is my letter to the world that never wrote to me
the simple news that nature told with her tender majesty
oh for the love
this message is commited
oh for the love
i should be commited
oh for the love of sweet contrymen who judge me tender
judge tenderly of me, please

when you're done please tell me so my thoughts may dim
oh darling you are lagging cause i still remember him
talking between the rooms so late at night
and the moss met our lips
and covered up our names till light


this is my letter to the world that never wrote to me
the simple news that nature told with it's tender majesty
oh for the love
this message is commited
oh for the love
i should be commited
oh for the love of sweet countrymen who judge me tender
judge tenderly of me, please

wild nights, wild nights just you and me
they were our sweet luxury
futile rowing against the sea, the breeze
it brought dejected sounds and bathed them in glee
as our voices sung, the orchard's spangles hung

Monday, March 22, 2010

i try

my feet move beneath me
but my head is somewhere else
my hands move of there own accord
as i am searching through the corn
but no one's there
cause no one cares

should i care
about the life you're leading
you are bleeding all over the couch
your mouth's the only thing i care about

should i care
about the life i'm surely leaving
i've done enough reading to travel the world

when i fall
i try
when i take it all
i try
when i ruin it all for someone else i try so hard
i'll just try harder next time

would anyone mind
if i just laughed and cried at the same time
my emotions are mildy wild
like a zoo
that fits in your shoe

i've got pretty small shoes to fill
but i try to overflow them
with all my dreams and wishes
but eleven:eleven has passed
and it won't come back

when i fall
i try
when i take it all
i try
when i ruin it all for someone else i try so hard
i'll just try harder next time

do you care
about the life you're leading
you are bleeding all over my damn couch
is your money the only thing you care about

would you please care
about the life i'm surely leaving
i've done enough reading to travel the whole world round

i'm surely leaving
getting out of this town
so that you won't follow:
i'm burning this city to the ground

when i fell
i tried
when i took it all
i still tried
then i ruined it all for someone else
now i'm done trying

Thursday, March 18, 2010

see for yourself what i've become

i'm a cheater
cause you made me that way
i'm a liar
you taught me what to say
i'm loud
when i'm yelling at you
i'm always yelling at you

i'm pretty
yeah i'm pretty full of it
i'm lame
i never know what i'm doing
i fall
when you push me down
you push me down again

i'm a theif
i never returned your heart
i'm a murderer
i wish this was the hardest part
i'm a bird
cause i'll fly away
oh i'll fly away

where am i
who am i
when am i
what am i doing!

i am cheater
i am a liar
i am loud
and i am proud

i am full of shit!
i am lame
i will fall down
will there be a crowd

i am a theif
i am a muderer
i am not a bird not a bird
cause you won't let me fly away
fly away
you won't let me fly away

Sunday, March 14, 2010

(my headphones should play) your voice

speak to me
hold my hand as you
talk with me
keep my head up
so you can speak to me
i'll stay awake just don't hang up
cause i wanna hear you speak

well can you sing
all those lies would be much prettier if you would
sing to me
put the slander to a melody
i don't care what you say
as long as it's for me
just just just sing

oh my memory fails me
that mp3 is so boring
what do i remember
that mp4 i've heard it all before
why can't my headphones play your voice
they should play your voice in my head
why can't my headphones your voice
my headphones should play your voice
back to me when you're gone
so i can sleep
so i will dream
of your voice

even when you scream
woah! you scream so loud
even when you scream it calms me down
so scream
and yell
and shout
and pound your hands on me
anything
just scream just scream just scream just speak just sing
it helps me

oh my memory is failing me
that mp3 is so boring
my mp4 i've all that crap before
play my headphones play your voice
play my headphones play your voice
come on headphones why won't it play your voice
back to me when you're not here


when you're not here
i want your song in my heart
i want your lies in my head
just lie to me just lie to me just lie to me just lie to me just lie to me
oh i'll believe
as long as it's your voice
those three words
are even sweeter when you don't mean it
just lie to me
you know i'll believe

shhhhhh
shut off that mp3 or 4 or 5
break my headphones
turn on my memory
i don't wanna hear your voice near me